Coughing to the point where I started to gag and could feel vomit coming up. This happened almost every day before school for 3 years.
I couldn't even eat breakfast because I wanted to through up if I tried to eat something.
The most dreaded part of everyday was going home and realizing all the school work I had to do. When I sat down to get started on my school work, I knew it was going to be a long night as usual. Trying to do my school work flawlessly. Any lost points were unacceptable to me.
At the end of each day, I knew what would be coming when I wake up. This took a mental toll on my mind every day.
It never stopped.
I was determined to get straight A’s in high school and become the valedictorian. But I would ask myself if what I was going through was worth it.
Nobody knew what I went through day after day after day. I was essentially in my own prison.
But I kept going everyday not just for myself but for my mom because I needed all A’s to be success and lead the way to a well-paying job. With a well-paying job I could make enough money to take care of my mom.
Fearing each new day of school because maybe today was the day I would lose points or get something other than an A.
All of this trying to get A’s was making me miss out on hanging out with friends and family because I spent so much time studying. But also I was on edge because I was stressed and worried all the time.
My life was in jeopardy. How was I going to get out of this?
I never knew I could be this sick, stressed, and worried. How could school make me so sick that I couldn't even eat...
There was no way I was going to fix this problem I had with what I was currently doing. The way I studied and learned was just inefficient. How was I going to make a change from many years of studying and learning ineffectively?
This all started in 2007. I never really share a lot of details about my past or my memory improvement journey. And what a journey it has been!
A lot of people look at successful people like myself and just assume we had a natural gift for it or we were lucky. However, I know how it feels to be struggling and thinking about throwing in the towel when it comes to improving your memory. I want to be honest and real with you about what I went through.
As Lincoln or somebody smart said – Any fool can learn from their own mistakes, but a wise person learns from the mistakes of others. It took me a few years to understand how to improve my memory, hopefully I can help you get there much quicker.
Stay tuned for Chapter 2: Entering My Prison